Wow. I really felt that. I think that's where many of us have been when we finally met God. It's also where God loves to meet us, because we finally come to the understanding that we can't do it on our own. We NEED Him!

Unfortunately, a lot of people think they need to clean up their act and be more "holy" before they can ask God for help. In reality He desires to meet us where we are at. Desperate and hopeless, so that we can experience His awesome power and love.

I can relate to so many things about your story, and have had similar experiences. I really enjoy reading your work, you have a great way with words.

Keep up the great work. God bless!